100 Day Journey - Week 3

"The longest journey of any person is the journey inward." - Dag Hammarskjold

Week 3 of the 100 Day Journey began yesterday. So far it has been different from my expectations. My journey has begun with a deeper awareness of myself as well as God. I don't think I've been self-focused, but I'm simply becoming much more self-aware. Aware of the tension inside to remove God from the center of my life and place myself in His place. Aware of just how deeply I can hurt others, especially those close to me. Aware of how much life I have to give, and how deep the joy is when I give it away. Aware of how long the journey to "Christlikeness" is, and how much every step is worth it. Aware that "Christ in me" is the deepest part of my reality, and my only hope to find the joy and peace my soul longs for. Aware that there is much beauty in the world that is waiting to be recognized and ackowledeged. Aware that there is much pain in the world that needs to be recognized and acknowledged. Aware that neutrality is not an option.


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Gary Moon Quote…

“Saints are just like you and I—except they have determined to live their lives so close to God that it makes the devil too nervous to follow.”

Gary Moon, Falling For God

100 Day Journey - Day 8...

So far this journey has taken some interesting turns. As I begin a new week I am pulled to the reality of the condition of my heart. Alan Hirsh and Micheal Frost point out that biblicaly the heart is the source of emotion, will, loyalty, and commitment. While it makes sence that this the place to start I am finding that it is also easy to confuse the heart and the head. Thinking about or on God is good, engaging God with my heart is transformational. Part of spiritual maturity is learning to discern between the two.


"lex orandi, lex credendi, lex vivendi" - how we worship reflects what we believe and determines how we will live. Seeking "God only" isn't something I want to study, it is a prayer for my life and the lives of my family. God please grant me the courage and perseverence to engage you with my whole heart.


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100 Days - Who I am...

New
Emancipated
White

Child of God
Redeemed
Elect
Awake
Thought of
Indwelt
On mission
Needy


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100 Days - What He has done...

Didn't have much time to reflect today while at the AACC conference...hopefully more tomorrow.

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100 Days - Who I Was...

Dead
Empty
Passive
Retched
Alone
Vile
Exiled
Desperate


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100 Day Journey – Who He Is…

Yesterday I began my 100 Day Journey with broad reflection on the five movement “rhythm” of…Who God is, Who I was, What He’s done, Who I am, and Who He is in me.  Each day for the rest of the week I’m sitting with one of the movements to evaluate the current condition and direction of my heart and let God redeem and realign my heart, making “God Only” a deeper reality of my life.

Today’s pause is on “Who He is”.  I have to admit even as I type those words I chuckle.  The infinite size and scope of “Who God is” is humbling; and reckoning how little of my life is guided by the reality of who He is feels shameful.  I carry His name, but do I bear His image?  But see even that question reveals a fatal flaw…it’s not about me!  I start with Him and sit with Him alone.  There will be a time to reflect on the impact of who He is on me, but not now.  Sounds easy, but the praxis of it is less than “natural”.  As I ponder where to even begin I feel drawn to Job 38-42.  As God’s words to Job become His words to me I feel Job’s response become my own…“My ears had heard of you, but now my eyes have seen you.”

So I begin today grateful for new “eyes to see”, and hopeful that transformed seeing will translate into transformed living.